Dream A Lil' Dream;

2010-12-26T17:34:00.001+08:00

Moved to www.fongli2107.blogspot.com

Highlight(s) of My 2010

2010-12-26T14:15:00.003+08:00

Since it's almost the end of the year I decided to share with you guys a bunch of events and things that happened during my whole of 2010 which I found rather meaningful to me as well as some interesting and wonderful people I've met and known throughout the year. This will be done in the following post(s) to come over the next few days up until the very end of the year.

Stay tune!

2010-12-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

I secretly never want to let go off your hand.

2010-12-19T18:53:00.001+08:00

Christmas is less than a week away.

WOOT!!

2010-12-14T21:31:00.002+08:00

Hello world,

Soooooo... *long pause*

I'm jobless again...Yes, I quit my internship (yes, after only 2 weeks... *hides face*). It just really wasn't my cup of tea along with other external and internal reasons. heh. Thus, I'm back to square one, job hunting... I might consider rotting this whole holiday. I'm not complaining about bumming around, I don't mind it actually (to be honest).. But, money doesn't fall from the sky (WHY??) and my dad will probably be not too pleased about it. :O

So how now???

-The confused, lazy bum, blogger-

2010-12-11T14:36:00.003+08:00

For every light that was lite represents someones plea for help, the burning hopes and dreams buried in them.

For every light that shines has a story behind it; a story from different individuals of different life's, different backgrounds.

In desperate times, they turn to God and not irrational actions.

Suicide is never ever the solution to your problems.

Suicide is an act of a coward dodging problems.

Suicide is permanent as you can never turn back the clock once it's done.

After reading about the suicide case of Alviss Kong, all I can say is I don't feel sorry for you. Though yes, I do hope you rest in peace. I hope you didn't regret in the end your actions, that is now permanent. My condolences to your family although like many, I did not know them, nor did I know you.

Oh Shoot Me Please!

2010-12-11T13:15:00.004+08:00

I went from this...

back to

THIS!

Buck! It was unintentional.

2010-12-10T07:10:00.000+08:00

I regret cutting my hair so short.

My Hunger For You...

2010-12-06T22:44:00.001+08:00

you're voice is the first thing I want to hear when I wake up every morning

you're the person I want to rant about my day to

you're voice is the last thing I want to hear before I go to bed.

I miss you, bum...

2010-12-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

I FEEL FAT :(

BYE

Thankful

2010-12-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

I just got my Semester 1 results via text just now. Overall, I would say that I did ok, but not good and not great. However, I am thankful to God for guiding me through the whole examination. I am thankful he comforted me before every paper and I am also thankful that he answered my prayers; that is to not fail anything. Now that I know where I stand (which is quite low in the hierarchy of success), I have to really buck up next semester. Imma wear on my game face. >.<

xxxxx

Technology, Oh Technology

2010-11-30T07:45:00.003+08:00

WHY DO YOU FCUKING DESPISE ME? :(

Last night, my beloved, almost 1 month (YES ONLY ALMOST A MONTH) old phone decided to go into a coma. I could not revive it. I tried removing the battery, I tried removing the SIM card and I also tried plugging it into the charger, but it refused to 'wake' up. Then I remembered twin telling me something about Nokia phones always having to constantly be reformatted. Hence, I googled and trust me, I did not like what I found. Click here please. Tell me how to NOT feel depressed after spending 3/4 of my salary from Juiceworks on the phone T_T.

FML?

The Almost 1 Year Anniversary With...

2010-11-29T16:20:00.002+08:00

... my DSLR <3

Yes people, I kid you not. My baby and I have spent almost 1 year together and our relationship is growing stronger day by day, night by night. I've learnt so much about my baby over the past few months. Nothing can separate us. I promise to love and take care of you.

bleh

Yes, I'm that lifeless.haha. :( :( :(

On a much ~~crappier note~~ brighter note, work starts on Wednesday.

If Only Money Grew On Trees

2010-11-29T12:49:00.002+08:00

Hello world,

Is it just me or does time seem to be passing by really fast this year? I've been having a lot of flashback memories of the events that happened a year ago. One year ago, during this time, I was having my finals. One year ago, during this time, I was admitted into the hospital. One year ago, during this time, it was near prom (My first, and only prom with twin, who was my date & Lara). One year ago, during this time, we celebrated freedom. Most importantly, one year ago, during this time, we were all still living in the same country. Now, everyone is scattered all over the place. We don't text or hangout anymore. Instead, we've traded all of that for long skype conversations. Ah.. the joys of modern technology! I'm some how having a para-social relationship with my close niche of friends. I was just talking to twin . She was telling me about her gymnastics coaching course and the stuff she needs to do before she can officially coach on her own. I then told her that we should actually make our college businesss class project (our dance business, Shakie's School of Dance) become reality. We could start off in Canada before expanding the business to Malaysia (Eujin and I would run this 1) and also expanding our business to Sri Lanka (Shakie will run this 1). Twin would still be based in Canada, and so would our main office. We could all put to good use the skills we are learning in our respective universities now. Ah but of course, this isn't really possible as we do not have the money to invest in this dream. It is but a dream. Maybe some day when one of us marries a rich dude or chick (in Eujin's case), it will happen. hehe. But till then.. heh .. But you have to admit that the idea we have is awesome. :)

So you see, readers, if you could just come up with a way to grow money on trees, I'd be :D cause...yeah, you get the point. ;p

That's all for now.

A very random rant. hehe.

2010-11-28T01:04:00.005+08:00

Everything seems so surreal when you are around me- 27/11/2010.

How I Spent My 19th Birthday

2010-11-25T15:57:00.013+08:00

21st of July

1. I took a photo with Mr. Panahi for it was the very last time I'd be seeing him.

He left for Oh Canada

2. Karaoke with friends :)

3. Camwhored at my now formal work place.

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Two

Three

Four

4. Dinner with my close niche of friends. <3

5. Finally after 19 years of my life, I stood on the chair at TGIFridays and I dragged twin ( 9 days younger than moi) along with me.

All ends well :)

Part & Parcel of Life

2010-11-23T16:31:00.002+08:00

Our lives are like a long and winding journey towards a certain destination. This destination varies according to what we expect to accomplish out of life. It could be pure happiness, success, recognition, etc. However, before we get there, there's a million and one obstacles and hurdles that we have to get through, some may be unpleasant, some may be pleasant and some really just test our strength to go on. I believe that the situation I'm about to put myself into is all part of growing up. I will scrape through it and survive, not unscratched but as a better, mature person. In Decembre, I say Bonjour le stage! I really do hope my decision was the right one cause I some how feel like I am jeopardizing quite a bit from this job, especially my time. Hopefully, the benefits out weigh the cost. heh. But yeah, no point in avoiding this because one day I will have to go through it anyways. After all, it is all part and parcel of life, my life. At least I choose to believe so.

She Who Left

2010-11-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

You readers are wondering why there has not been much said about twin over the last few months and also why pretty much everything is being referred to in the past tense. Well, it is because twin left on the 26th of August for Toronto, her birth place and also the place she's going to resume her studies (and is already resuming it..). Hence, the next few blog post after this will all be events that happened before she left. After that, I think I won't be mentioning much about her till she gets back for her break in 2012. Till then, B1 and B2 shall cease to exist. Booo...

I miss you twin and all the random stuff we use to do together.

The Twins Go to the Twin Towers

2010-11-21T12:02:00.009+08:00

On the 15th of July, the wonderful people you see in the picture above made a trip down to KL to go up the KLCC Skybridge. This outing was planned by moi for a very long, long time but it had to be put on hold due to the availability of everyone. However, in the end, Amir bailed also cause of his Visa application stuff to Oh Canada . :(

You can click here for details (i.e. opening hours, days it is open to the public, etc.) regarding the KLCC Skybridge.

My advice to you guys if you plan to go is, be sure to be there early to avoid disappointment as the tickets distributed are limited to a certain amount each day. We reached the waiting area around 7.15am-ish and this was the crowd already:

The tickets are distributed at around 8am. Tourist are usually allowed to pick which time slot they want to go up. However, it is on a first come first serve basis. 5 tickets can be collected by one representative. Hence, be sure to go in large groups to avoid boredom.

If you go in a large group, be sure to have a camera to camwhore ;p

Once at the top, don't forget to:

Gaze down

Take a group shot

And take a jumping shot that will shake the whole bridge (yes, we did shake the whole bridge, the tour guide guy told us)

Lastly, take a mug shot of everyone as prove of "I've been to the KLCC Skybridge!". :D

That's all for this post.

Port Dickson

2010-11-17T22:50:00.009+08:00

28th June 2010

Yes, it was way back in June that my friends and I did a day trip down to Malacca (which I've already updated on) and Port Dickson. The only reason why we decided to make a stop at PD was for the oh so NOT clean beach. In case you don't already know this, people say that the sea water a.k.a the water at the beach contains water from the toilets of the nearby hotels and public toilets because the plumbing system is interconnected. :O So yeah, not so clean, but we were itching for the beach and none of us knew where the beach was in Malacca. Hence, PD. Sorry if I seem to be beating around the mulberry bush right now.

Anyhoo, after driving and driving and driving in search of the beach my parents brought me the last time, Daniel suggested that we should go to the beach at Avillion Hotel. Since we were not guests at the hotel, we were well going to trespass. hahaha.

We people do not know how to read signs.

The beach was pretty much abandoned due to the hot sun. See see see!! ;p

Since it was steaming hot we decided to have a little tree climbing session.

The evil crab monsters lurked the pathway to the sea. Hence, I didn't get the opportunity to dip my toes in the sea. :( After awhile, we got ask to leave the hotel property and we were even escorted out. An 'awesome' way to make our way out. Booo.

We decided to go and grab something to eat after that. Pizza Hut was the nearest option we had and my-oh-my was the place filthy. The whole restaurant had flies flying around, the sink had dead flies in it. In short, I lost my appetite after washing my hands. While waiting for the food, Amir attempted to google the beach we were looking for. I had already called my parents to ask them the name of the beach, which by the way, I've already forgotten the name. haha.. It's been so many months so you can't blame me for I stored this detail in my short term memory. bleh After all the 390984093280 attempts, we finally found the beach. We managed to dunk our self in the filthy sea water. Oh, we also sat the banana boat. It was my very first time by the way!

And...

We also bumped into Yi Bei there.

We didn't know that her parents owned the hotel/ shower area there. :D

Before I end this rather messed up, all over the place post, here is a picture of the sunset.

A better update next time. :B

Say All I need (right now is)...

2010-11-10T16:54:00.000+08:00

Focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus,

The Art of Procrastination

2010-11-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

Having a major assignment due tomorrow or.. an exam just around the corner; say this Friday?? However, you just can't seem to place your butt down in front of your study table and study/complete your assignment/homework etc? Well, you my friend have pretty much started your quest on mastering the art of procrastinating. heh

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As you can see, my attempt to study communications today was an epic failure (not that the day is over yet, but still!!). Instead of mastering how to communicate with communication studies (I'm suppose to be reading the 39093 readings I've failed to read over the past few months), I managed to master "THE ART OF PROCRASTINATING".

Instead of studying I:

a) Stoned. It's the funnest thing to do (but not when you have to study for exams!!:( ). In order to stone you just have to focus on an object/ a poster/ a wall/ the floor and space out.

b) Watched Desperate Housewives and Gossip Girls. Instead of studying the theories of communications, I traded my studying hours to be a passive audience to the evil world of the media!

c) I took a nap!! and it was good!

d) I looked through my wardrobe for the fun of it.

e) I watched Barney with the lil brat. heh

f) I'm doing this blog post now. :D I mean :( :(

Awesome shit, no? Yes, I'm ashamed of myself but a tiny bit proud? I kid you about being proud ok? heh I mean there really isn't anything to be proud of... and it will most definitely show in my results in December. Fml.. Lots of miracle praying to be done. :( :( :( But God alone won't help. He won't help unless I put in effort. Sigh.

Better get going now then?

tata

The Potential Update List

2010-11-09T01:25:00.001+08:00

When finals are over I'll probably update on:

Port Dickson Trip (finally!)
Birthday Party with Twin :D
Twin's farewell :(

Mambo Jumbo A.K.A Crap

2010-11-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

Exam ar...

Why is you so hard to tackle? :(

Me no like you much because

you make me stress

and when I stress

I eat so much my tummy bloats!

my face becomes oily

and so does my hair!

my eye bags become bigger that you can barely see my eyes.

Exam ar..

you so difficult to understand

why can't you tell me how you feel

instead of making me guess from A, B, C and D.

that's like a probability of 25%

of getting the chance to know you :(

Exam ar..

why must i write down what is on your mind

some more only 2 hours to do so.

how how how?

Gah!

Sorry people, this is the stress speaking. I know this doesn't really make much sense but oh well...

2010-11-07T18:06:00.001+08:00

cravings <3

Say Hello to Nerd of The Future

2010-11-06T18:47:00.003+08:00

New glasses.

Take note face expansion due to lack of exercise.

bleh

byebye

And Now I Know What It's Called

2010-11-05T14:55:00.002+08:00

I have always, always wondered why I can't recall events that happened as a kid, as a toddler to be more precise. I only can recall bits and pieces of things that happened during those carefree days. I'm pretty sure everyone feels the same way I do, no? After cramming for 2028309 days (yes, I am way behind my study schedule) cognitive psychology, I discovered that the term for this is *drumrolls*

Infantile (Childhood) Amnesia

(So..technically, we all do suffer from amnesia. haha. ironic.)

Basically, this 'amnesia' is known as the inability to recall personal experiences from the first few years of our lives or memory loss for early experiences.

Interesting? I found this interesting and also the fact that we tend to modify our memories unconsciously into something that didn't really happen though we assumed confidently that we did is also interesting. weird at the same time too. Cause, then what really is the truth of events of the past? heh we will only know if we keep diaries or blogs and then we read about it in 10years to come..hmmm..

Alright, I is a happy kid cause I am done with the theories of social, abnormal and cognitive psychology. So erm, bye bye text book no.#1. I will read you again on Sunday T_T.

and...

Hello, rda?? you know you love me??

All in all, I am freaking out cause I am not prepared for my finals on Monday. 96 questions in 2 hours. May god bless my soul and guide me through this obstacle in one piece. Amen.

Bye readers? (Kalau adak)

Bonjour Novembre!

2010-11-03T08:20:00.001+08:00

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I got nothing to say at the moment except studying has been such a bitch.
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Byeee?

Lame I am

2010-10-30T16:34:00.003+08:00

Your looking at the face of someone who has successfully maintained her vision for two years straight.

Let's not jinx it now, shall we? *TOUCH WOOD*

Back to communicating with communication.

=(

Just Cause I Felt The Urge to Write

2010-10-29T00:40:00.004+08:00

Hello blog,

I should be cramming for my finals which is just around the corner, well not really around the corner any more. It is more like a few stops away... but yes, here I am yet again. I know I've neglected you for a long, long while mainly because I don't have the time to update you and well, I feel that I don't really have anything meaningful to pen down here.

Have you ever wondered how life works? How every decision we make has a reason behind it and that we only learn the reason of it later on in life? and sometimes, we never really learn of the reason behind it either... also, have you ever wondered how the paths in life enable us to cross path with people we never expected we would ever meet?

I for one find it really scary in some ways, when I think to myself..."what if I never changed path to this path... then I would have never met you...or then I would have never done this or that...". For instance, say I did A Levels instead of CIMP, I would have never known Shakespeare, or twin or Lara... I would never be the person I completely am today..

But then again, I could have became something better out of the other decision, no?

Ah, but I obviously do not have any regrets on all the decisions I've made so far, just some.

Did you know that after several wrong turns, 394029840 right turns, some zigzags, u-turns, roundabouts and flyovers I made in my decisions this year, I stumbled upon you?

All I can really say is thank you for being in my world. ♥

Night blog!

Blank

2010-10-03T18:59:00.002+08:00

I know I said that I would refrain from coming here but I really need this; for today at least. My mind is so scattered with random facts causing such havoc in the thinking department of my brain. To make things worse, other random, irrelevant stuff lingers around the surface of my brain suffocating every available corner of my brain preventing my brain from producing sufficient oxygen to think. I need an awesome idea! I need an awesome essay! I need my brain to be on the same page as me. But right now, all I feel is blank. A big fat BLANK.. All I can do is stare at the computer in front of me wishing that the paper would just do itself. ISH.

Feeling Content

2010-09-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

Thank you for everything I have right now.

This blog is under hiatus till my finals in November are over. Feel free to click here though to read my mini updates.

tata

2010-08-24T19:52:00.003+08:00

Hello world.

It's almost 8pm and I'm still here at my second home. It's so awesome. I practically live here every day (except on Saturday and Sundays). I eat here, I sleep here (SERIOUSLY), I stone here, I hang out with my friends here and I nerd here. I'm actually still in the library larh. *nervous laugher* My 1st minor essay is due this Thursday. Celina is leaving... THURSDAY. I'm not ready.

=(

The Window

2010-08-17T17:44:00.004+08:00

Lost. Insecure. Scared. Pathetic. Clingy. Dumb. Lazy. That's how I feel right now. I know that I should be focusing. But I just can't. Short attention span. :C Excuses after excuses. I know. I know I can make it through this semester (not unscratched but I can make it through). The window of opportunity is just right in front of me. All I have to do is work my way towards it. All I have to do is not succumb to temptation. All I have to do is not go astray for this path I'm on now. But the world outside this other window looks so carefree and peaceful. The clouds in the sky are a calm baby blue. There are birds flying in flocks up in the sky. There is a large green meadow in front of me. Everything outside that window is better than what I have outside my window; a grey, dull and gloomy atmosphere. The rain is pouring heavily outside. There is no sign of life lingering in the sky, only thick, heavy grey clouds clumped up together like a huge cotton ball. I know the other window is just an illusion of how I wish life to be; easy. But I just want to be there right now. And I know that I can't cause life's a bitch.

Bliss

2010-08-15T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today, the funniest, most random incident happened to me while I was at work. At least I think of it as that. But before I get into the details of what happened, I'd like to say that working in a FnB is not so fun at times because you meet the weirdest customers ever. I can go on about it all day. Let's just talk about these two different customers I faced today.

Customer A
This customer was sort of like one of my aunts, only thing, there were 5 of them.

Aunty A: I would like to have a bla bla bla
(I'm sorry I forgot what she ordered).

Then all the other aunties behind her discuss what they want and then they tell her.

After reciting their orders again and getting her confirmation, I punched in her order and pressed "take out".

This aunty comes out of no where and says;

Aunty D: No no, I don't want take the mango passion. It has yogurt in it.

I swear in my head I was thinking, wtf. I called my boss then to settle the matter.

In the end she paid for the price of her drink (which was Mango Melody). And then she went to sit.

So yeah, problem solved. Or so I thought lar.

Customer B

Customer B was this woman and her son and daughter.

Me: Hi, welcome to *#@*&^$.

Girl: Erm, is the Lychee Paradise nice?

Me: It is nice. But it is sweet. However, the sweetness is from the fruit itself. We do not add any extra sugar.

Girl: Hmm... I don't think I want it to be so sweet. I want something sour a bit.

Boy: Take Power k? Take power.

Customer B: You take power for your drink larh. Recommend to her what is sour that is nice.

Me: Hmm.. erm, what about the berry burst or pink passion? You can try the sample over there.

This went on for quite awhile. You roughly get the idea la. So they finally ordered and all and paid and went to wait to collect their drinks.

Customer B came back to order water because she didn't like the juice. Coincidentally, at the same time, Customer A came back.

Customer A: IS THIS MANGO PASSION? THIS IS NOT MY DRINK.

Me: Erm, yeah it is.

*Then I realized I forgot to inform my colleague that the drink on the receipt was swapped to another 1.*

Me: I'm sorry. I will change it for you.

Customer A: I already said I don't want this drink because it has yogurt.

Me: I'm sorry Miss. Please have a sit. We will change it for you.

And then I had to explain the whole thing to my colleague who did not look too happy about my mix up.

My facial expression after that was 'upset' or so it seemed cause Customer B said;

Customer B: Why do you look so upset? It is just one mix up. You don't have to get upset over it. If she wants to be like that to hell with her, no?

Me: Thanks. *smiles* ( Seriously felt good to be sympathized)

Her son comes and then he says: Why do you look so upset? You should smile more. You are such a pretty girl you shouldn't be so upset.

Me: err.. *smile*

Customer B: My son thinks you are pretty. My son thinks you are pretty.

Me: Thank you..

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Lol, I really didn't know how to react. I only know that I felt relieved to have such a nice customer like customer B. Hehe. They seriously made my day by trying to cheer me up especially since they don't really know me. They don't even know me actually. Thanks you so much.

(=

Oh btw, it is funny that they say I look pretty because this is all they can really see of me.

*inserts image*And, my hair scrunchy looks cute.
That's all for now. Please excuse my choppy, horrible English. I haven't been blogging much to begin with. Hehe.
Don't judge me.

P.S: Anak Chan, if you are reading this, I miss you. A lot. :C Haven't been hearing from you.

Come Crumbling Down

2010-08-14T02:27:00.002+08:00

Less than 2 weeks more...

there will be no more you.

:(

Goodbyes suck. Goodbyes suck. Goodbyes suck. Goodbyes suck. Goodbyes suck. Goodbyes suck.

The Evil Bean Bag

2010-08-11T20:04:00.003+08:00

It has been 4 weeks since I've started studying yet my brain still feels semi-dead. I guess that's what approximately 6 months of holidays does to your brain. =X

Anyhoo, ever since I've started at Monashi, my friends (Shakespeare!) have been telling me how comfy the bean bag in the library is. I did not believe her. My opinion was that the bean bags were rather filthy and disgusting as you don't really know what people do on them. They might have humped the poor bean bag for all you know.

That was my perception about the bean bag until I tried it for myself because...

...I fell asleep studying on it yesterday. WTF.
:(

It was seriously unintended.

*inserts image*

Note: I wasn't sleeping when this picture was taken. The real sleeping photo does not exist as I was alone at that time. x)

All right, that's all for now.

P.S: Hello singlehood. (=

Hello, August!

2010-08-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

Seriously lacking the time to update. I feel so disorganized right now. It is already week 3 and I haven't covered much of what I need to study over the pass few weeks. I'm declaring a 'darurat' on my own self and I'm going to restrict my outings already. A promise made to myself. I will overcome this and I will succeed. I hope...

Inception was WOW by the way.

tata

2010-07-31T11:39:00.000+08:00

HIATUS

Dead To The World

2010-07-23T15:33:00.002+08:00

Wake up. Go to uni. Eat. Present hunt. Come home. Reply facebook comments. Sleep.

That's all I've been doing over the pass few days so please forgive me for not updating this space. I might not have the time to do so at the moment. Too much readings to read for next weeks classes. I'm uber lost in uni actually. I feel so tiny over there due to the fact everyone seems to know what they are doing. But I'm loving classes and the environment so I guess it all balances out, no??

I'll update soon on;
-PD

-Sky bridge

&

BIRTHDAY.
:D

tata

2010-07-17T12:36:00.005+08:00

So much to update but I seriously don't have the time to do so now especially since I have tons of pictures to put here which means a lot of patients loading them. I will be back soon, ok?

Sneak peak.

PD

KLCC Sky Bridge.

Till then,

tata

J'ai Horreur De Rapid KL

2010-07-09T22:36:00.003+08:00

Today I had such a "superb" bus ride home. I seriously, seriously don't get Malaysian public transport at all. Either the bus doesn't stop for you at all or they decide "Hey, lets see how many people we can squeeze into this tiny little bus" because that's exactly what happened today. I think there was about 40-50 people standing (from the front to the back) in the bus today, no kidding. It definitely exceeded the maximum capacity of people allowed to be standing in the bus. To make things worse, it was uber jam thus the bus was barely moving. I am claustrophobic by the way. I really, really felt like I could not breath in there. =X And I hate the feeling of feeling like you are in a box with four corners around you. It is seriously annoying!! Another one thing I hate is the fact that some Malaysians can be so inconsiderate. There was this pregnant woman standing at the back of the bus but everyone some how pretended to be sleeping, stoning, talking on their phone or texting just to avoid giving her their seat. I mean fuck la. Didn't their parents educate them to be more courteous towards others. If I were sitting I would have given her my seat, but I wasn't la. I was sandwiched in a box beside this woman, this old lady seating on the chair in front of me and this dude with a huge bag pack behind of me. Urgh!

FML?

Road Trip Part I: Malacca

2010-06-30T12:49:00.016+08:00

Twin and I had been planning since last month to go on a small road trip to Penang this month for 4days and 3 nights but our plan backfired due to some unavoidable circumstances. Thus, we switched it to "Lets go to Melaka for a day!" ... and PD got slotted in some how.

Road trip buddies consisted of Maka (Driver #1), Daniel (Driver #2), Amir, Twin & I.

*inserts mug shot*

Note: Don't ask me why the guys pictures are so tiny! :p

Our journey started at about 7ish. I can't really remember the time. All I remember was sitting outside waiting for Maka to come pick me up. He told me he'd be reaching by about 6.15 am thus I locked myself out at about 6am ( big mistake!!!). The fellow only showed up at about 6.30am. I shall leave it at that.

The journey on the road took about 2hours. I wasn't really paying much attention to the road. I was semi hyper and semi falling asleep at the back with twin & Amir. Haha.. What I do remember is that we arrived at Jonker Street at about 9.30am.I actually found it amazing that they still used the old parking ticketing method whereby you have to buy the ticket book and scratch off your time and hours. I think Selangor stopped using this method about a decade ago? LOL. We were lucky to meet such a friendly shop owner because she sold us the tickets based on how many we needed instead of making us buy the whole book. She even gave us directions on how to get to the famous chicken rice ball shop!

On the way to the chicken rice ball shop we spotted this sign which made twin really excited because it had the word 'Canada' there. LOL!

If there were no cars parked in front of it, I guaranty you, she'd take a picture with it. hehe..

And alas...

Twin did the ordering because none of us spoke Chinese.. haha.. :p

Twin & I with the coincidental look alike sunnies!

The all time famous chicken rice balls!

While I was eating I realized how horrible my chopstick skills have became. I am not saying that it was good to begin with, it just was better in the sense that I could grab food and put it in my mouth. Lol. Now, I find it so hard to even grab a cucumber. TSK! Its probably because I haven't used chopsticks in 9034032004 galactic years. heh

After eating we headed off to the church. I was being such a walking textbook as quoted by Maka because I was telling Amir about the history of Melaka cause Amir is Iranian (in case you don't already know it).I managed to say a little prayer when I was in the church. I love being in churches because it makes me feel safe and secure. It makes me feel like I am really close to Him even though He is every where.

This is a picture from last year and a picture from this year. Haha...

*Click on it to enlarge*

Did we change much?

Here's a picture of the guys!

Haaha.. I keep posting pictures of twin and I making it seem as if they are minor characters of the trip. :p They weren't ok. Haha. They were erm... great company too! LOL. Ok, they seriously were great company. (=

Then we went up to the fort.

This is by far my most favorite picture because it has all of us in it.

We asked this friendly middle aged couple to take the picture for us. It was quite funny actually because I brought baby and not my Sony thus it took them 5-6 attempts till they actually snapped 1 picture. But I found them cute la..hehe.. =3

We also managed to spot a rainbow!! So pretttttttttttttttttttty. P.s I killed the pic with my editing skills. LOL. xD

Me was so pleased cause I had baby there with me to take pictures of it. (=

Our so called 'family' shot. Lol..

And I got my emo shot. :p

Here's a shot of us reliving them war days.

And despite the fact that I was dressed with minimal cloth, it was still freaking hot. In the end we went into this shop area near the boat ride thingy just to gather around a tiny lil fan.

After that we went to Cel's ship. :D

Us with the one and only sexy Hang Tuah!!

Hopefully he brings us some "tuah" for touching him and taking pictures with him. xD

After the ship thingy we headed back to the car because we wanted to go to PD for the beach. And also to get sun burnt! Haha.. I was alone on that 1. :C

I'll blog about that another time though. :p

2010-06-25T22:57:00.001+08:00

Exam tomorrow...
:C

Dead Fish

2010-06-24T23:27:00.002+08:00

I am so not looking forward to this weekend. I really, really just hope that things run smoothly or I'll probably get all upset about it as I am still emotionally unstable. I'm holding up though. Tomorrow I have work 12-8pm and then hopefully dinner with Reuben unless he bails on me. If he does, I can't kill him seeing that I've bailed on him 3 times already. You see, I was suppose to bring him trekking at Bukit Gasing but time just won't allow me to do so. heh ...

On Saturday I have my dance exam in the morning which I am so nervous about. I somehow don't want to get the grades I usually get for my ballet exam because then it would be so embarrassing and well depressing. :/ And some how, my world seems to revolve around guys with the name Daniel. But my partner is alright larh seeing that he has to put up with my two left feet. =X Plus, he is friendly so it's all good I guess. I'm just really scared I mess up. My teacher said that I am still stiff like a rock and my steps are as if I am doing ballet... Urgh.. =C

On Sunday, I have my KL Marathon which I barely trained for. =X 10km!!! aaaaargh!! I haven't been going to the gym for about 2-3weeks now. No stamina already la dei! I just hope I finish the whole thing within 1hour 30minutes lar cause that's my usual record anyway.

And on all of the days above, I have to work for 8 hours. I just hope I don't mess up and don't get told off la.. I'm on my toes at all times at the moment when I work. I am so, so scared I mess up...

Stressed!!

:(

Rabbit, WHY?

2010-06-21T22:28:00.004+08:00

The whole world (I exaggerate) apparently has this theory that I look/am/is a rabbit or in Maka's case a werewhabbit. Haha.. Please excuse my very powderful England. hehe .. I've been uneducated for the past 7 months, well 6 actually since I went to college for a month in April. So erm yeah, look at the picture above and tell me in my cbox whether you see a rabbit look alike there cause I honestly don't.

And just in case you don't know what a rabbit looks like...

*inserts image*

There you go.

Sorry Michelle, this is the best I can do. Haha..My brain is still on vacation. Haaahaa.. Go Google "bunny rabbit smiling pictures". There are a bunch of cute bunny pictures for you to see.. he he..

2010-06-21T20:48:00.003+08:00

Hello blog! *cricket cricket* I'm back after 1 week of moping around and being all upset. I'm alright now. I'm done being upset over someone who clearly doesn't care about things anymore. (=

*inserts a happy image*

Ok, this picture is here only because I am vain.

Anyhoo, just wanted you guys to know that I've finally started working (yes, FINALLY . If you read my previous blog posts months ago you'd know why). Its a weekend job though (Fri, Sat and Sun). And to be honest, I am a super noob there.. :C

Not going to tell you exactly where I am working, but here is a clue.

XD

That's all for now.

2010-06-17T01:41:00.002+08:00

I'm going to shift my gloomy vibe to my tumblr blog a.k.a my more secluded blog. So no more emomomo updates here from tomorrow onwards.

Slap Me

2010-06-17T01:16:00.001+08:00

cause I really do deserve to be slapped. Maybe then I'll come to my senses, no?

2010-06-14T14:28:00.001+08:00

I will be ok, right?

My Paper Heart

2010-06-13T19:23:00.002+08:00

Today I decided to get out of the house and take a walk down memory lane, literally. This is because in the past I'd go for evening walks and jogs with that someone. In the past, we use to walk home from school together. You get the picture. Today, I took the exact same path not because I wanted to feel sorry or sad because everything has changed but because I wanted to deal with my pain. I wanted to face it and deal with it. Like twin told me yesterday in the car on our way home, " Don't be sad anymore. It is the past. Live with no regrets". The walk did refresh my memory on a lot of things. The mirage of what was us came to my mind. Images of you and I being happy, images of you consoling me when I was sad, images of us. And maybe I am being paranoid but as I walked I felt as if you were right behind me still. Maybe because it all seemed so familiar to my mind and soul. You should know that I never wanted things to end this way. I never did. I had other plans but those plans don't seem so important anymore. At least you are in a much happier position. I will be happy soon once I've found myself again. I lost myself in you, I only realized that when things were officially over. And maybe that's why I'm upset now (in a way).

I still feel that choking feeling when I type this but I know that I am ready or at least am going to be ready to let go of every single bit of my past 3 years. In other words, I choose to feel like I was dead for the past 3 years and now I am finally reviving myself. I don't want to hold on to anything because I won't feel better that way. Especially with regards to your present actions, I rather let go of my contaminated past then let it have anything to do with me.

I am slowly letting go off the memory of us by tearing my paper heart into pieces.

I will make a new one someday when I find someone who actually deserves it; someone who loves me for who I am and someone who supports me and respects me as a person.

2010-06-13T12:12:00.003+08:00

After months & months of trying and getting rejected by ~~men~~ shops, I finally got a ~~boyfriend~~ job. =D

And its at one of my all time favourite places, Juiceworks.

*inserts image*

I just really, really hope that I don't embarrass myself when I work there and I hope I don't mess up. I've never worked before and this is really scary for me. LOL. In fact, I've never cut a fruit my whole life. Damn..

Anyhoo, I start next Friday so feel free to come visit me as the offer will only stand for one day. Once I face Friday and I mess up, I will tell you please, please, please, please, please I beg of you, don't come, ok?

Off to study some french now!

tata

No More Tears

2010-06-12T01:40:00.003+08:00

Today, I breath fresh air again. Today, I won't be sad anymore. Today, I won't cry anymore.

All the boxes have been shoved far away from my sight. I choose to ignore it.
Today, I will wear on my smile again.

Today, I live for ME.

The Ghost of The Past; YOU

2010-06-11T02:31:00.004+08:00

Everything seems to have popped out of place like a Jack in the box. My emotions seems to have scattered all over the floor bringing out memories of the past. All those boxes that I've tried to bury away in my closet have all tumbled out of the shelves causing a huge mess. My brain is scattered all over the ground, unable to function and rationalize the whole situation. My emotions have conquered my ability to think straight. Tears seem to fill my eyes like an unwanted storm that is about to take place. My heart feels like its been stabbed by multiple knives. I feel my chest aching as my heart shatters into a million pieces. The person I thought I could trust is no longer there; nothing but a small tiny spectrum remains. That tiny spectrum remains in the core of my heart. I don't want to feel this way. I really don't. But somehow, I feel cheated, lied to and betrayed. I feel like everything is and was a lie. I don't want to look back. I really don't but you dug out all the cobwebs lying in my closet causing all my boxes to tumble out. Boxes that contained memories that I didn't want to think about anymore. You then left me, sitting in the middle of this mess feeling puzzled, upset, tired, disappointed and hurt. You smile as you leave me. I am left alone to weep in the darkness of my past. You push me back into the pit of darkness as you gloat about your successful attempt of moving forward. You throw all the memories of the past out of the box so that they can haunt me. So that images of the past can play back in my head so that imaginary images of you and her can stab me further. I am trying to gasp for air now, but I can't breath. I feel so incapable of myself. I feel so unworthy. My willpower, my confidence, they've all left. Leaving me alone to pick up all the broken pieces of glass from the frames that contain fuzzy memories of the 'what was'. I don't want to clean up the mess that you've made. I don't want to be in this mess. I rip out images and letters of the past hoping I feel better but somehow it doesn't help. It only makes things worse. You choose to haunt my dreams too, making me not want to shut my eyes cause when I do, all I see is playbacks of everything that has happened. I keep praying and praying that God will give me courage to get through this. I keep praying... but it won't go away. Not until I deal with it mentally and emotionally.

2010-06-09T01:28:00.001+08:00

Hi blog,

I've officially lost it. I've lost that ray of light and now all the gloomy clouds are here to stay.

Just Keep Walking...

2010-06-08T12:58:00.007+08:00

"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential & fight for your dreams" - Ashley Smith

(because you can!)

On the 29th- 30th of May I went for this event called the "Relay for Life" event. The event's purpose was to gather people from all walks of life to join the cause of fighting cancer (not literally). It was more of showing our support towards people with cancer as well as paying our respects to those who lost the battle of cancer. This event was held for 16 hours, 6pm-10am (yes, an overnight event). Participants were required to walk for 16 hours or less, so long as the track that we had to walk on was never empty. I did my 16 hours though. A lot more on that later.

Initially it was suppose to be a BRATS thing as Stephanie & Aivee were suppose to come too. But they bailed on us due to some personal reasons. Thus, it was only the three amigos from BRATS: Mark, How Tian (James) & I. However, I did manage to drag anak Chan along with me & Mark also manage to bring a few friends.The day (more like evening) started off rather gloomy due to the rain. Anak Chan & I got stranded under this huge but not so shady umbrella. We were guarding our territory for the night. In other words, the spot we were guarding was where we intended to dump our stuff and go and walk.

After that it got too heavy to take any pictures. The wind was blowing with all its might. I swear if we were to run in the rain back to shelter it would have been one heck of a task as we would be moving against the wind.

By then the rest of the people joining us (as in our friends and some new friends) showed up.

They started the 1st lap of the relay with the cancer survivors walk. In my opinion, no one would have guessed that they ever had cancer nor would anyone been able to guess that they had been through a tough battle because they looked so healthy (in my eyes). They looked so happy. I really, really admire their determination and their courage cause it definitely must have been a tough battle. And to be standing in front of this crowd today, must have really been such a huge victory for them. I don't know how I would deal with it if I were placed in the exact same situation. I didn't take any pictures for this though.

*stalk my fb to view pictures!* xD

Oh yeah, it was super muddy thanks to the rain. Anak Chan and I eventually decided to take off our shoes. Hehe.. We'd rather dirty our feet than to dirty our shoes.

Some of them from VADS did the Ms. show and man were they drop dead gorgeous. Like seriously. I didn't know what type of fashion show it was until Mark told me. I wish I were thin like them! Again stalk my fb to view the pictures. LOL. I darn lazy wei *smacks head*

We actually could rent tents to sleep since it was an overnight thing but we didn't. One tent cost about RM50 rental price. Plus, we did not really intend to sleep. Thus, there really wasn't a need for a tent.

They were selling these paper bags with candles in them and a wrist band for RM3. You then get to decorate the other layer yourself. They have this station with all the paints and marker pens. Most people wrote messages about people they lost because of cancer or about people they knew battling cancer. Most of the messages made me want to cry because they were sad. It made me realize how lucky I was to not have to deal with the pain they were put through.

Some of the very personal messages.There was one message which I found really sad. I didn't take picture of this one either. It was by this 2 year old girl, well her dad wrote it. It was about how she could not adapt to the lost of her grandfather who had died of cancer. And how her life feels empty because of his lost. In a way, I could relate to how she felt because that is how I feel every time I think of my late grandfather. That is how I feel on most Sundays; empty.
There was also a dedication session where people went up on stage to talk about the ones they lost. The whole atmosphere at that time was pretty gloomy.

Some celebrities also went for the event. They had this booth set up where people can pay RM3 to take pictures with them. A few celebrities that were there was Amber Chia (not a fan of hers), the Ms Malaysia '09, etc. OMG I did not know that Joanna Bessey was there. I am like a huge fan of hers. I use to watch her on Kopitiam when I was a lil kid.
Here is a picture of the celebrities performing a song on stage.

After that, everyone resumed walking.

We got tired of walking thus we decided to walk over to the stadium with the actual running track. We ran a few laps there. It felt so, so, so good to sprint run on the track again. It has been 2 years since I last did so. It was really nice and it did freshen us up a little bit more.
I shall not blog about how I whined for milk or how I opened the door on some girl. So lets just fast forward things a little bit more.

At 6.08 am, Mark finally slept. LOL.

Anak Chan & I didn't sleep at all though.

Here is the prove.

A sleepy, yawning Anak Chan. :D

Alas it was morning at last. LOL. And I became cranky. Heh!

Some of the events in the morning which included Tai chi and line dancing.

I found this lil guy cute.

hehe.

Morning sky!

At almost 10am we let go our balloons for fun.

Doesn't this remind you of "Up".

Almost died in the train ride back. We were so tired. And I almost couldn't wake up Anak Chan. Ask her why. xD

I might go back for this again next year. It was definitely an eye opening experience for me. And I did enjoy myself too.

2010-06-07T22:52:00.001+08:00

I'll be alright by myself
And no one is gonna tell me I'm defined
Confined by love.

Credits to Chok Eu-Tjin.

2010-06-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

Fulamak! This just feeds my tiny ego. HAHAHA..

*Click on image*

I damn lame to even be even doing this.

heh

C & C Day

2010-06-06T20:56:00.004+08:00

Today was the day Celina & I had been anticipating so much since I forgot exactly when. hehe My brain is kinda dead right now due to lack of sleep. I'll share with you my super awesome waking up methods another day. Maybe then you will get why I am sleepy. Hehe. Anyway, today was C & C day for twin and I. No, not Celina & Caryn Day but Clean & Clear Day a.k.a the day of our interview for the Top Model Best Friends Competition.

The competition that I've been harassing you guys to "Vote, Vote, Vote!!!" for the past one month. Thanks to your hard work of voting for us every single day we managed to make it into the Top 15, 12th place. But sadly, they decided to make it a Top 25. So... Go figure... I won't share with you much details about how the interview went. You can just personally ask me online if you are interested. Lol. All I can say is "Damn, I was so intimidated by all dem skinny chicks there". T_______T Why must I be so so so so fat???

We had to wait pretty long too for our turn to be interviewed. This was us while waiting.

Oh and I saw twin's nervous side for the very first time today. Funnah! Trying to get the video onto my computer to load on facebook. Nwahahaha!!

After the whole thing we destressed ourselves with yummy Juiceworks, a movie and a fattening dinner. :D

That is all for now? haha.. Sorry for the really half hearted update. hehe

The Final Goodbye

2010-06-02T15:56:00.005+08:00

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

---------------------------------------------------

It was my choice to break things off and I have no regrets about it. Life still goes on for the both of us. Don't dwell on the past especially since you've just started anew. Leave the past behind as it does not really matter any more. Yes, to me three years just punctured a big hole in my heart. The 7months that I've been sober has just healed a small portion of my broken heart. Broken from all the conflicts, distrust, lack of faith from you and our distance apart from each other. I did my best to hold on to what we had until I could not see what was this suppose to mean anymore. Please don't ask me if I still do love you (though I know you won't anymore as I've deleted you from my life; cyber life). My answer will always be a firm "No". All I can tell you is that I did love you but now I don't. I don't want to hold on to something I don't understand anymore. I don't want to hold on to something that isn't there anymore. And with that I wish you well.

Goodbye.

You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me.

2010-06-02T00:44:00.004+08:00

You left a mark,
He left a mark,
I left
And I don't need it.

Th Closed Chapter

2010-06-01T13:20:00.005+08:00

I've been bumming around since mid May (quite mid) because I've pulled out of IACT and I am now currently waiting for my intake in July to Monash. I just really want to thank all those people such as Leann, Mari, Nikki, Crystal, Ruling, etc for being my friends during my short time there. I really appreciate it especially since all I do is show this really upset, sulky and ston-ish (is there even such a word) face. Thanks for everything.

Now to put a picture to the names. (=

Ruling and I.
Nikki, Crytal, Elaine and I.

Some of the rest.
Thank you guys so much for calling me out yesterday!

2010-05-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

So much to blog about but I'm just plain lazy to do so. I will soon. I promise.

tata

2010-05-29T00:59:00.001+08:00

And sometimes running in the rain helps...

Numb

2010-05-26T13:31:00.002+08:00

I got the answer that I was looking for already. Unfortunately, it was not the answer that I wanted to hear. It was the answer which everyone was telling me to prepare for. To be honest, I do not know how to feel right now. I do not know whether I should just laugh or cry. I guess I'm so used to all this rejection from scholarships that I really do not know how to feel anymore. I just feel very numb inside. Maybe my dreams weren't as great as the others who applied. Maybe my results weren't so magnificent compared to the rest (damn you rash, yes I put the blame on other stuff except myself). And then that little voice in my head says "Or maybe... it just wasn't meant to be"... I know where I stand right now. But what if I don't want to stand here. Why is it that I can never really make a decision in my life. Instead fate (not something I really believe in) is the one that controls my life. Pushing and directing me around. Forcing me to the path that I do not want. Why?
I will NOT cry. I WILL NOT .
Because I am better than that.

2010-05-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

" If this is how it hurts it couldn't get any worse. If this is how it feels to fall... Then that's the way it is; we live with what we miss. We learn to build another wall till it falls"

Day by day I feel my dreams of living slowly slipping away. Everything feels nearly impossible right now. I'm bringing myself to have the courage to finally deal with reality. Soon... I will get over this phase of my life; this dream, this desire, this urge of mine. I'll lock it away in this box and store it on the highest shelf and never look at it again. Not until I am ready to accept everything maturely.

In Medias Res

2010-05-24T17:46:00.003+08:00

I'm neither here nor there. I don't really know where I stand right now. I feel so lost right now; so uncertain about which path I want to go down. I feel time pass by me day by day, night by night and yet there is still no news. The feeling of guilt lingers strongly in me for all the past mistakes I've made. I'm yearning onto something that isn't really real. I mean, the thing does exist... but whether I manage to seize it is another story. All I can really do is wait and wait. I feel like drowning myself in my sorrows. I feel like running away from reality. I'm just not ready to face the truth. I am just not ready to deal with life, my life. I keep wondering when will it be my turn; when will it be my turn to life live the way I want to. When? When? When? *sighs* I guess that is the problem when you put so much hope and desire into one thing, especially when the odds are like.. 1: 1000000 (for all you know).

I'm just sitting here waiting for my that tiny, bright light to shine on my life.

Where My Rainbow Ends

2010-05-24T00:52:00.003+08:00

There's this one thing about life that I can't quite figure out and that is where my rainbow ends. Do I believe in fate? Do I believe in karma? I do not know. What I do know is that I am just living in the moment. Right now it feels like I am living in a vacuum though. So, so many wrong decisions and a fatal outcome. I'm only stuck with myself to blame. 8k down the drain if there is no refund. I'm left in this dark corner to cry over the spilt milk. The milk that I spilt on my own because of my stubborn self. All I can really do is drown myself in self pity because I am that weak.

Another thing about not knowing where my rainbow ends is the fact that my fate of whether I get to live my dream which is to study abroad is really, really very hazy now. Sometimes I feel like I'm rubbing this Magic 8 ball that keeps telling me "All signs point to NO " when I apply for scholarships or anything like a scholarship. I just don't have such luck. I just don't have the personality that people want.

What sucks more is that I can't really talk to anyone about it. Everyone keeps saying the same thing which is to prepare for the worse. That computerized answer only makes me feel like there is no hope at all. And all I can do is nod my head, smile and act as if I agree with every single word they say.

I just really want this so bad... If I get it, it may at least make up a bit for the lost of money and my mistake I made. I'd at least make my parents proud of me for once. Sometimes I feel like such a black sheep academic wise especially when you compare me with my brother. *sighs*

Dear Lord, would you at least answer this prayer. I owe it all to you if you do.
Amen-

New Beginnings

2010-05-23T23:37:00.001+08:00

Since anak Chan has helped me pimp my blog I won't be shifting off anywhere. The whole reason why I wanted to shift was because I wanted to start a new, away from the past. I want to change my url also. But not at the moment as it is going to be so troublesome informing those who read my blog (despite the fact there is only a small portion of regular readers) one by one. Also, I want to start blogging like a 19 year old. Hahaha.. That's going to be hard seeing that my English has gone down the drain (sort of) * heh . But I will try my level best to do so, ok?

To new beginnings!

*Cheers*

Waterworks

2010-05-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

I wish to wake up from this nightmare.

=(

Sometimes I say the stupidest, heartless things...
& I can never take what I said back.
I'm sorry isn't even enough.

2010-05-22T13:28:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wish I had the guts to drive then I wouldn't have to burden anyone.

Twinly Moments

2010-05-20T13:43:00.007+08:00

Here are some of my camwhore moments with twin. (=

Lastly, be sure to vote for us here as you only have less than 2 weeks left to do so (voting closes after 31st of May 2010). If this is your first time voting for us be sure to accept and allow all publishing. Next, click Clean & Clear Malaysia. Which reminds me, you have to be in Malaysia to vote. After you click Clean & Clear Malaysia you will be directed to the home page of the contest. Click the "Photo Gallery & Vote" tab and type in the search bar "Celina Lim & Caryn Gan" and Voila! , you can now vote for us. Be sure to vote for us every 24 hours.

Thank you (s).

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Food, Food, Food

2010-05-20T11:45:00.012+08:00

Last Tuesday Celina & I spotted a buffet promotion at Sunway Resort Hotel & Spa. We were there buying bread from their bakery (50% of bread after 7pm). Anyhoo, as I was saying, there was a poster stating that the Sun & Surf Restaurant was having a promotion for their buffet which runs til the end of May (if not mistaken). The original price for the buffet is RM55 but now, they are offering a 40% discount for your meal provided that you dine there at 12pm. You can eat till about 2.30pm which is more than enough too. (=

Because we thought it was an awesome offer, we went to eat there this Tuesday. Hehe..

Here is some of the food that they had there which we took.
Desserts!!!

Chocolate fondue *yum yum*

This was my favorite section.

Full, full, full faces.

Maka!
This is how much all this would have cost without the discount.

With the discount it was rm 113.90 ( I think it was 0.90).

Altogether, I only paid RM 37.90 (per person. the bill was split among 3 people).

You guys should check it out before the promo ends. Go with thy parents & make sure you try their burger that is beside the buffet counter area cause it was yummy.
:D

My personal rating for this buffet would be a 7/10.

2010-05-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

Will update soon!
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Fat

2010-05-18T01:55:00.001+08:00

Urgh!

FATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFAT
FATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFAT
FATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFAT
FATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFAT

IS it wrong to feel like vomiting out your food?

:/

2010-05-18T01:04:00.004+08:00

Sometimes you can't really erase the past. We can choose to ignore it. We can choose to deny the fact that it ever happened but there will always be a mark in our lives to prove that it did. I choose to pretend that everything was real even if it were a lie. I choose to believe that you were heaven sent. I choose to believe that you changed me for the better. I choose to believe that my life got messed up after you chose to walk out of my life. Today, I'm no longer that lost girl you've rescued from the dark. I am someone who knows what I believe in. I am someone who will always treasure what you did for me last time, be it fake or real.

Happy birthday angel of the past.

Thanks for everything that happen towards the end of 2005 till mid 2006.

2010-05-16T19:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I choose to be an outcast to the surroundings around me.

Booo~~

YZ: Pigs will eat humans if this day comes

2010-05-16T15:18:00.002+08:00

...no it won't. It will just add more LOVE in this world.

Behind Those Grey Eyes

2010-05-15T11:56:00.003+08:00

Me finally got my colour contact lens. RM 25 for 1 pair that will last a year in case you were wondering. Apparently, the girl (selling the contact lens) house is just like.. 2 houses away from mine. =_______=

Anyhoo, picture :D

My mum says it looks fake lorh..

Y_____Y

Oh well..

2010-05-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

Oh by the way...

I'm off studying again until July 12th.

Don't ask me why.

tata

PS: FB WHY ARE YOU DOWN; & ONLY DOWN ON MY LAPTOP???

Mungkin Bila Nanti

2010-05-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

2010-05-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in the statement that everything happens for a reason?
What if you make the wrong decision and want to turn around and change the mistake?
Is it possible?
Is it really worth it?

:C

#2 I miss...

2010-05-07T12:55:00.001+08:00

Ancient Turtle

2010-05-06T10:39:00.002+08:00

I'm currently blogging from college an yes, the internet is very. VERY, VERY slow (but you should already now this from my blogpost title?). I've not been blogging much as my life has been pretty repetitive lately. EG. wake up go college, come home go online, sleep, eat.. *yawns*
Thus, I decided to spare you readers the boredom since you all are probably semi-bored or buried in work to even come here.

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So... I actually have this essay I have to write but as usual I am procrastinating it... *hides face*

I've also got to prepare a presentation on trekking ( I chose trekking by the way)...I'm ok with having to do presentations. But without the usage of slides???!! I haven't figured out yet how I am going to present. Any ideas people???

:d

Besides that, I also have this 1 Malaysia project which I have no clue what on earth is going on. Having group issues.. Class politics??? HAHAHA...*pulls hair out*

So yes, I do not know what is going to happen to my grades...:C

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ASTRO SCHOLARSHIP??? Where are you?? T____T

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I want to go for Glee flashmob.. How how how??!!!

Can't make it for rehearsals.. :C :C

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I drove to college yesterday.

:D??

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Stressi

Hey people!

2010-05-04T01:33:00.002+08:00

hey guys! My friend, celina lim and I just joined the clean and clear comp. Yes we aren't that pretty but we would really like you guys to vote for us because of the prizes. (= You can vote for us at

here

the link may not bring you directly to our profile. so you have to click on the "photo gallery & vote tab" and then type in at the search " Celina Lim & Caryn Gan". Click on our pic and you can vote. Please try your level best to vote for us every 24 hours. Get your friends to vote too. We would appreciate your help a lot.

Thanks guys!! :)

Weekends

2010-05-02T16:22:00.012+08:00

I think I truly appreciate my three day weekends for now. It is the only days I don't have to rush or worry about something. By the way, academic wise, I don't think I am doing too well. Sucks larh.. *sighs*

Anyhoo, yesterday I went out with twin, Maka and Amir to Pyramid to watch Toy Story I and II 3D. Quite worth it larh I think. Rm 18 for two movies. hehe.

We smuggled JuiceWorks in by the way..haha .. *yum yum!!* PS I think I buy drinks at Juice Works so frequent that the workers there already recognize me.

This was taken during the 10minute interval.

Amir looking shocked.

So is Maka

Twin and I.

The kids behind us were so darn noisy. They kept saying in mandarin what was going to happen next. :C In other words, they were spoiling it for us. They also kicked our chairs. :C The best part is that their dad who was sitting beside them did nothing. WTH.

The movie ended about 1030pm. We headed off to twin's house for her sister's birthday party. It was a beach themed party. So twin and I changed into our batik-like cloth we both in Sabah.

The four of us. (=

Notice how we're all wearing a different shade of blue minus Maka who wore black.

With the birthday girl. (=

Camwhoring at the beach themed wall corner. (=

After that, Maka, twin and Amir played chor dai di. It is so freaking embarrassing that I do not know how to play the game whereas Amir who is not even Chinese knows how to play the game. *buries face*

We played the game of Life after that.

For my sake of being a total noob at chor dai di..HAha.. Ended up playing till 12.45 am to which twin said "OMG, it is almost 1" .. lol..

Luckily Maka was sending me home wei or else I think my parents would have slaughtered me alive already. HAaha..

By far, a great weekend. Our next outing shall be for Toy Story 3 or Wimpy Kid la. (=

And hopefully our overnight trip in June works out.

*fingers crossed*

tata

Chapter 29390 of My Life

2010-04-30T21:33:00.001+08:00

To new beginnings!

I'm still trying to fit in.

2010-04-30T21:08:00.003+08:00

We should go star-gazing/ city gazing/ night shooting again 1 day, ja?

In Juillet

2010-04-29T06:34:00.000+08:00

Highlight of My Day

2010-04-27T22:12:00.001+08:00

tata

The Outcast

2010-04-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Why am I having such a hard time fitting in? :(

2010-04-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

I kid you not, I smiled this widely upon completing my final essay.

Yes I am that retarded and fat.

Now all I can do is pray and pray and keep my fingers and toes crossed that I get called for an interview. That is after my essay gets proof read by the one and only twin.

2010-04-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

People only see what they are prepared to see. This is how I see life as.
Complicated yet beautiful.

Boxes of the Past

2010-04-24T12:45:00.002+08:00

Everything has finally been finalized (sounds so business like). He (shall not be mentioned any more) is finally going to move on. I have finally sealed that past into a box. A box that I shall never see or think about for years. Perhaps when I have kids of my own I will talk about it la..Haha.. I don't know.. I'm relieved though. I know he will find someone better out there. For me, I choose to be alone for now. I choose to live by my "I walk alone " theme. :p

I'll update soon.

tata

Hot Air Balloon

2010-04-22T17:01:00.019+08:00

I finally am going to blog about the 2nd Putrajaya International Hot Air Balloon Festival (after 1 month..haha). I've nothing much to say actually. I just feel it wasn't really that great except for the fireworks. Maybe it was because of the time I went also.. haha. I went late in the evening so I guess almost everything finished already. This is all that I managed to take of the festival and some other stuff. (=

tata

Exhausted.

2010-04-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

Full stop.

Reality Check

2010-04-20T20:10:00.003+08:00

" You should prepare yourself with other options supposedly you don't get the scholarship"

These words are stuck in my head right now. My aunt brought up the subject over lunch just now. It is not that I haven't really thought about my other options. After all, I do realize how slim my chances are of securing it anyways. I just really don't want to think about it now. I know it will only make things worse later if I don't prepare myself for the rejection. I'm just stubborn I guess. I want to believe that I can get it. I want to believe that I will be leaving at the end of August this year. I choose to feed myself with all of these lies than to listen to the truth. I rather be in this little imaginary fantasy world of mine than to be face to face with reality. I'm just this really naive little (not-so-little actually) 19 year old girl. :C

Stressi

2010-04-19T22:51:00.001+08:00

I feel like I've lost myself. I feel like I don't know who I am at the moment. I don't know what I want. I feel like I don't belong. I miss my comfort zone. I miss being familiar with things. I just feel really, really lost now. I can't explain it at all. I can't explain this feeling. I wish I was in that picture now. Stoning away...

:(

2010-04-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

Essay #1 is done at last. Thank you twin and Jacq for proof-reading my horrible mess. <3

Essay #2, it's you and me against the world tomorrow. RAWR.

Nights people!

2010-04-18T21:48:00.001+08:00

Isn't it so sad to realize that you don't really have any accomplishments to be proud of?
:C